It comes from no where..
Then all I can feel is deep sorrow and loneliness.. It shakes me.. It breaks me.. It leaves me hopeless..
All enthusiasm gone.. I feel like screaming..
Its in this moment I long for you the most..
I wish, you could be here.. To hold me tight..
Then its all gone.. I'll be stronger again..
But you are away.. Far away from me..
I beg to to the almighty to take away this feeling..
To let me free.. To fill my heart with hope..
I wanna go.. Chase my dream.. Not be a victim of this feeling..
Fill my heart with hope.. Let me live.. I wanna live..
Then all I can feel is deep sorrow and loneliness.. It shakes me.. It breaks me.. It leaves me hopeless..
All enthusiasm gone.. I feel like screaming..
Its in this moment I long for you the most..
I wish, you could be here.. To hold me tight..
Then its all gone.. I'll be stronger again..
But you are away.. Far away from me..
I beg to to the almighty to take away this feeling..
To let me free.. To fill my heart with hope..
I wanna go.. Chase my dream.. Not be a victim of this feeling..
Fill my heart with hope.. Let me live.. I wanna live..
We all become anxious at times. But for some like me anxiety becomes frequent and goes a bit far such that it starts affecting daily life. However hard you try to keep yourself happy and positive its difficult to stop this panic attack. Its my experience. Only recently I started facing this challenge. I didn't bother about it earlier, but later when it started haunting me so much I started to analyze it.
For me it was usually in the afternoon. I wasn't able to take a nap during day time. After the nap or in between I suddenly wake up with a deep sense of sadness or loss or whatever it may be. It was quiet puzzling because I might not even have had any thoughts in my mind to make me feel sad. It will be the worst feeling that anyone can have. Only solution to avoid it was to not take a nap in the noon, because once it comes then its like a dementor attack as in Harry Potter movie. It takes away every bit of happiness and leaves you in a sea of hopelessness.
Avoiding nap helped me. I didn't have to face the dementor anymore. I went on without much problem. Then it showed up again at other times. I finally understood that when I'm running away it is following me even faster. So I stopped running and decided to face it. It wasn't easy.
I searched on Google and read and understood more about this. There were lot of solutions to this out of which one you can do without any side effects is meditation, yoga and breathing exercises and practice mind-fullness. I was looking for self help because my circumstances didn't allow me to consult a therapist. So, I started doing meditation whenever I felt I'm getting those feelings. I never thought I could sit and meditate. But it wasn't difficult. I slowly started enjoying it. It really helped me. I started feeling better. I used to meditate many times a day. After few days I didn't need to take that much effort. Now I do a 20 minute meditation every morning. It has become a part of my routine.
There are a lot of guided meditations available on YouTube. Since I needed to get a grip on my emotions I chose this guided meditation Transforming Emotions.
After doing all these still I used to have panic attacks. But, I started facing it in a different way. Its effect was not that severe. I could easily switch back to my normal mood rather than dwelling in deep sadness.
I also started reading self help books. First one I read was Tony Robbins' book Awakening The Giant Within You. It can be downloaded or bought. Its worth the price. Then I recently finished Norman Vincent Peale's Why Some Positive Thinkers Get Powerful Results. All throughout the book you'll feel that the author is walking along with you. Both these books cite lot of experiences of others who has faced depression, failure and such feelings and how they overcame and finally succeeded.
After reading Awakening The Giant Within You, I started using metaphors as he has suggested in the book. My metaphor for Panic is pancake. I love food, so I chose this one. It just brings down the intensity of that feeling when I say Pancake instead of panic. The feeling is still there but with much less severity.
If we want to come out of suffering, the best person to seek help is ourselves. Only we know us completely. Believe in God and be positive and seek help and give help to others when need it. Sometimes just being with the person is enough to bring them back.
Avoiding nap helped me. I didn't have to face the dementor anymore. I went on without much problem. Then it showed up again at other times. I finally understood that when I'm running away it is following me even faster. So I stopped running and decided to face it. It wasn't easy.
I searched on Google and read and understood more about this. There were lot of solutions to this out of which one you can do without any side effects is meditation, yoga and breathing exercises and practice mind-fullness. I was looking for self help because my circumstances didn't allow me to consult a therapist. So, I started doing meditation whenever I felt I'm getting those feelings. I never thought I could sit and meditate. But it wasn't difficult. I slowly started enjoying it. It really helped me. I started feeling better. I used to meditate many times a day. After few days I didn't need to take that much effort. Now I do a 20 minute meditation every morning. It has become a part of my routine.
There are a lot of guided meditations available on YouTube. Since I needed to get a grip on my emotions I chose this guided meditation Transforming Emotions.
After doing all these still I used to have panic attacks. But, I started facing it in a different way. Its effect was not that severe. I could easily switch back to my normal mood rather than dwelling in deep sadness.
I also started reading self help books. First one I read was Tony Robbins' book Awakening The Giant Within You. It can be downloaded or bought. Its worth the price. Then I recently finished Norman Vincent Peale's Why Some Positive Thinkers Get Powerful Results. All throughout the book you'll feel that the author is walking along with you. Both these books cite lot of experiences of others who has faced depression, failure and such feelings and how they overcame and finally succeeded.
After reading Awakening The Giant Within You, I started using metaphors as he has suggested in the book. My metaphor for Panic is pancake. I love food, so I chose this one. It just brings down the intensity of that feeling when I say Pancake instead of panic. The feeling is still there but with much less severity.
If we want to come out of suffering, the best person to seek help is ourselves. Only we know us completely. Believe in God and be positive and seek help and give help to others when need it. Sometimes just being with the person is enough to bring them back.
Thank You for all those who have read my post and especially those who liked it. I would like to hear from you about this topic or any suggestions to improve my blog as I'm new to blogging.
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